woah

I guess my "Do this everyday thing" plan fell through...

much like my plans always do.

I'm just sitting around. Thinking. About. Stuff.
Like I do everyday.

And It just occurs to me; "Hey, I have no talent."
Riight, everyone is good at SOMETHING, huh?

No. Talent.

Like I kinda just fucked myself over.
This kind of just tears appart my evening.

Not physically talented, not mentally talented, not artistically talented.
No....talent.


Wow....this just completely ruins my day.
Hmm, I really am a loser.


Is it so impossible for me to be good at something?


What am I supposed to do the rest of my life..if I'm not good at anything?

Today

sucks.

Seriously.
It just sucks so immensely I can't even think of the words to say...
I've lost the one thing that made me happy..


the one thing that got my mind off everything
the one thing that I could look forward to this summer...

gone-gone-gone

its really not fair...

I duno, I didn't do anything wrong

I just don't feel like going on a big spiel about it or anything.

So now mom's looking for a barn..

and a horse maybe...

I duno

it just hurts being ridiculed by an adult you don't even know.

Does everyone judge me this much?

Hehe

I thought this was cute, and it reminded me of my friends.

Well, off to ride ponies.

Good morning,

Blogger, you're looking dapper.

I watched house bunny this morning (:
So nothing new so far...I'm home alone again but its okay, I'm getting used to that.
I 'll HAVE to get used to that this Summer.

Well, Anthony was supposed to come over and he said he would, but Lindsey invited him first so you know, I had to to what I do and tell him to hang out with her.

Ehh, it kind of bugs me...
I feel like I'm losing all of my friends.
Like there's 100 sum gumballs in a machine right? They're all at the bottom near the hole, and I'm at the top.

I'll probably be expired by the time I'm out.
So I won't be good anymore, ya know?

Yea, so nothing exciting has happened yet really. I decided I'm gona try to do barrels on Lady.
Man, I love that horse.

So I'll probably end up posting another blog later, ciao.

Sooo,

let me introduce myself; Miranda-14-Michigan-freshman/9th grade

Stalkers, thats all you're gettin from me.
I'm guessing that this is gonna be a daily thing so get used to whining if someone actually decides to 'follow me' on here....to me that sounds kind of creepy...follow me. Ughh, like I want someone reading everything I'm doing.

Woot.
Anyway, this is probably going to ramble on and on because I really have no idea what to talk about for a first 'blog post'. Well...school's out. Thats good, sort of. I cried like a baby on the last day. And I'll never admit it but I wanted to cry everyday last week. I kind of just contradicted myself because I just announced that to the whole world...

hah, I listen to depressing music.
Just because I say 'hah' doesn't mean I think its funny..

So right now I'm talking to my best friend Anthony.
Yep, bestfriend.
I have 5 bestfriends actually...
Emily, Anthony, Kayla, Zach, and Saskia.

But everyone knew that....
unless I don't know you er....

Yea.




Did I mention I got kicked in the face by a horse today? Not fun :/
My face hurts. Like I could just stick my face in a bowl of ice cubes right now.

Yea, I could go for that.
*gets up and walks to kitchen*

Guess what I did?
a.)got a banana
b.)forgot what I was doing
c.)tripped
d.)got ice
if you answered a,b,c, or d....you're correct!

Grr, the ringtone on my phone gets annoying after awhile. Does anyone else feel like that too?
Yea, so now its pretty much always on vibrate.

Okay, this blog is really pointless.
Anyway,
my friends are all hanging out together. Did I mention i said together?
as in not with me too....
did I become invisible over the summer?
Maybe.

But I guess I've always been kind of invisible.



Well....my boyfriend is on vacation
with some girl

and anybody would be worried if they were in the same situation, but no, not like me.
Not as much as me. And I'm 109.8652% sure of that.
Dammit, I broke my nail.


Ugh, I need him.
Really, I need him. Its only been 2 days and I feel like I'm the lowest I've been in a long time. I know that's a terrible thing too. I'm way too dependant (sp?) on him.

Just now more then ever I could use a bestfriend...
but they all seem someplace else in their lives ..
they all need the help more then I do...
but, maybe thats how I got like this in the first place?
I don't know...but I don't want this to be any longer

I'm just bringing myself down.

Just needed

some insipiration music